By Yuhi Shimano and NAJI Yanagida. Released in Japan as “Watashi no Kokoro wa Oji-san de Aru” by PASH! Books. Released in North America by Cross Infinite World. Translated by Kashi Kamitoma.

It feels like it’s been forever since I last picked up a Volume 1 of something that was just plain “isekai fantasy”. I suppose there was Land Mines, but that was after I got it recommended to me, and I was a couple years later on it. This one, however, came out today. I wasn’t going to look at it at all, but I saw it had won a few awards, including the “best for middle-aged men” category. How apropos. Given I’m in that demographic as well, I figured I would take a flyer on another isekai, despite the fact that it looked worriedly like one of those “I was a schlub in Japan, but now I’m a hot elf babe” books. Which, to be fair, it is, but that’s not what it’s actually about. This is a “can I regain the sense of justice and righteousness that my life in Japan ground out of me?”. The answer to that is, so far, a work in progress.

Haruka, a middle-aged middle manager who used to be a cute kid till he discovered that being the nail that sticks up and is not hammered down is a bad idea, is startled to find himself in the middle of the woods, and also he’s not in the body of a gorgeous young dark elf. She has no idea what happened, if she was transported or died or what, and no goddess gave her instructions. Fortunately, she meets a passing adventurer, who takes her to the standard adventuring city you get in these sorts of books, and discovers how to make a living in a fantasy world that turns out to be, to no one’s surprise except perhaps her own, a lot more dangerous to someone like her than you’d expect. Fortunately, she seems to have skill at magic. A LOT of skill at magic.

This isn’t terrific, but it’s solid. Haruka is an introvert who has also been somewhat crushed by life, and she’s very god at reading emotions of others but very bad at caring about her own self. (Despite Haruka being a man who ends up in a woman’s body, there’s not too much of a trans narrative here, beyond one interlude which ends by telling us we’ll be using she/her from now on.) The author states that they tried to write some bad guys, but kept thinking of all the characters as “cute”, so it didn’t quite work out. That’s for the better – there’s not many paragons here, and we only see true villains near the end. for the most part her world consists of teenage hotheads, lotharios who are trying to explain it’s different this time, creepy lesbian stalkers who have her best interests at heart but also her worst interests, etc. One of the stronger scenes is done from the POV of the teenage hothead, who yells at her and then, when he goes to apologize, suddenly realizes that she’s completely devastated and near tears from “her own failings”. A lot of this book is Haruka putting herself back together.

The second book should see more of that journey. This is a decent isekai, with only light novel cliche I hate (dwelling far too long on someone peeing themselves in fear). I’ll read more.